A Life To Live

There are times in my life where I realized that the person I was with, the friends I had, or the work I was doing, were no longer in sync with my life purpose. I could feel it and knew I was at a cross-road. Fear of the unknown, fear of judgment, fear of making a mistake, fear of letting go of something that could be, fear of letting down someone or me, not knowing what to do next, and leaving my confortable zone were the thoughts that always invaded me. I fought with them, but never for too long, as I knew I had to overcome them, one way or another, to be able to move on and get where I wanted. Sure I froze for a while, but I was eventually able to let go of all of that weight, as my will to live a full life was stronger. I also viewed the memories as part and my history and push them aside not to interfere with the vision of my new path. All that allowed me to create change. Embracing eventually the facts, without judgments, that life and people change; just like I do, were key to allow myself to accept things as they were and as they came. Courage, faith in me, and faith in the life lessons that kept on coming, are what gave me strength to keep taking the first step I needed to take throughout my life.

Oh, I choose many roads in my life that did not live to my expectations. But did they really? Looking back, they taught me and gave me a lot and I probably would not be where I am today, if it was not for them. There is no wrong road to choose from. There is no good or bad experiences. Yes, they maybe painful at time, but they are there to teach us something about ourselves and life. If you view it that way, they are short lived painful. There is simply a lesson to learn before the next cross-road. One lesson showed me how wrong I was to push away the memories without dealing with the emotions attached to them. Another lesson made me realized that those roads brought amazing people in my life. Some became true friends and some were teachers that still guide me to this day, even if they are no longer part of this world. Every single person I met has taught me something. Thank you to all for sharing and teaching me, even during the very short few minutes we once met. Thank you for teaching me so much about life.

I am reflecting on this today, because I am again at a cross-road. The next chapter of my life, but also a new exciting adventure, is in front of me. I just realized that I no longer view that cross-road the same way I used to. For the first time in my life, my mind is silent. My mind is not going on this wild ride telling me this or that, what if, fear this or that, bringing good or bad memories, and so on. I can’t believe it, it is completely silent. Instead, my heart is speaking to me and I feel a peace like I never felt before. I now understand one of the amazing powers of letting go and I feel free and stronger than ever. I trust this new me and can’t wait for my next life lessons. If they are as exciting as what I, so far, lived; bring them on, please!

I hope my experiences will help you realize you have a life to live....